my paradise

2010-01-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

BoOboos..helloes..gotta lotta things on my mind but the moment i start typing, my mind goes blank,as usual.
Its just that I feel God's putting my family to the test nowadays.Perhaps it's our lack of faith and self-control.or maybe not enough fellowship with each other. Its true. The moment we get together,it's only words about school life, hwks and exams and stuff, and not talking about spirit and family motivation and encouragement. Maybe it's a hard thing to do and for us to get out of our comfort zone, but i guess it's what we have to do to overcome our challenges together.

There's been this sad thing recently-my aunt has got a serious illness.Well I guess its pretty obvious what it is. I really pray for her health and for Charissa and Charinne and everyone. I think they're pretty strong in whatever they do, unlike me.I guess I would be helpless and depressed like never before instead of staying strong if I were in their shoes.:(
Maybe this is one way God is speaking to me. To help each other. Maybe I should reach out to people around me that need help.Well I really don't know, But I just hope all is well.
Oya. THis year's the Os.
stay strong everyone!:D

2009-11-19T22:39:00.006+08:00

hellos x10!!
It's like in a blink of an eye its gonna be christmas!!Time to celebrate abt jesus!
Come to think abt it,this year has just been..well..really really hush and quick. And its just abt 1 mth before the hols are over and pressure starts to build up for the O's..zzz...
I know i have to work hard for nxt year, and i gotta start by finishing all that sch hwk by this mth.
plus that i've got a lot of camps and vacation coming uo in dec, so gotta hurry.The only consolation: TRUST GOD.
gtg now. I noe my my blog's rotting. but nvm. MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!(haha..hope my large pimple on my nose will bring chirstmas blessings..:D)

2009-10-24T15:04:00.002+08:00

bleh. this holiday i will have to take the time to improve on my work. Teachers keepreminding us that the O's are only 1 year away...zz.:(come to think of it, its sounds scary. I guess I have to buck up soon.
haix. I've got another dilemma on my mind. Whether to go for youth camp or not. The thing is, I've never been to youth camp and i'm not really familiar with the youths. furthermore, its at OBS!:( I know I'm not really good and such adventurous stuff,but i would love to connect with God. I wonder what to do. I've got to pass the forms to my cgls later. Help!!): guess i have to ask God abt this.
Well.gtg for now.

2009-10-13T10:40:00.002+08:00

WhoopEE!! exams are over!:) I can finally heave a BIG sigh of relief. better relax these 2 days befor the horrendous results come..
Lately there's beena lot of things happening in the world. Like natural disasters in countries around us. Yeah, we should thank God for protecting us in this small small country!:) But my heart does go out for all those ppl whose lives have been devastated by the floods and all that. This might be the sign of the end, but i do hope everyone can just live life a little more peacefully.

Well, I do hope people who are facing truble,trials and difficulties in their lives will find hope and peace in whatever they do,and find endurance like what Romans 5:3 says:3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;perseverance, character; and character, hope.
Yup, I'm being biblical this time around, but this is what I think it shld be.
GTG!:D(to play facebook)

2009-09-05T19:17:00.009+08:00

hmm..just wanna post more pics of the 6.5 days...

me & jiamin..hahas same name..:)

me & ms nilam!

2009-09-04T18:38:00.004+08:00

Whew!These days are exhausting!!Imagine,my whole holiday being piled up by sch hwks,stress,exams and sch activities~~zz..some hols. The good news is,thats's something to be sad about.hahas.

Forget about school for the time being. Let's talk bout things happening around me. these days I've been chancing apon old friends, and the interesting thing is to see that they have changed so much. Like I saw Sheryl yesterday. I almost didint recognise her. and ppl in dear old kcs. JUst look at those guys! they've grown a whopping lot.xD I guess its part of life, really.Just stop seeing ppl for some time and the next time you meet them, they're like whole new people. See how fast God's growing seeds grow in us!xD

Ah wells. kcs's changed a lot too. I dod feel like talking about it cos the teachers didnt even let us roam round the school and see ms nilam.T.T its pretty unfair considering the fact that other schools didnt implement such rules on "keeping the students in kcs safe from bullies in sec schools just in case".It was the saddest teacher's day ever(to me). But anyways just accept it.

gtg now. and just for fun i posted some pics of 6.5 while we were kids in kcs~~xDbyes ppl! gd luck and God bless for EOY!!

2009-07-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

I feel dumb. My chinese isn't good and everything and I take so long to just type 1 chinese post.

I guess I better forget about life's troubles and just reflect on myself and the things I've done these days. I wonder what's my so-called principle and my goal in life. I guess i'm lucky enough to have a God that I can seek and pour out my problems to. God has a plan for my life, and it's all up to me to find out.

Maybe it's spreading the word,or its trusting in Him in whatever I do and loving Him wholeheartedly. Cell group does help stir up some questions on how I'm living my life,whether a Godly one or not.

well.it needs more reflection.gtg, off to spend time with
God once more.:)

2009-06-02T17:06:00.002+08:00

hi peeps. Its me again. I know I'm just blogging to myself but anyways, I dont mind cos i know my blog's rotting.Guess the hols are never meant to be fun after all. It's always the same thing.

It's the hols, but everyone's still busy with school and work and stuff..even me..haix.

Yearning for freedom before exams and complaints of boredom after.

I really hope I can make good use of this time to improve myself, have fun, learn to have MORE faith in God and..yeah. finish my school work. I totally am a failure at ss.nvm.
got to do my chinese blog.
I hope-I say it again-I hope I can do well in that. It's a way to improve my chinese and to bring up my chi grades. Maybe I'll fail my o level chinese. But I guess let's not be pessimistic. What's God for?:D
wells. the next topic- I still miss kcs. Should have treasured those lovely times when it wasn't so hectic with homework. the only way is to make ms nilam happy--get good grades now!:) make her pwoud!:]]]
gtg for now.

2009-05-18T10:48:00.003+08:00

WEE!! exams finally over!:) Haix. But it's my results that I'm worried about. I guess I won't really do well this year. But I really wanna try harder. It's kinda depressing if you know everyone around you does better than you. Well, i gotta learn to accept failure, cos life isn't a bed of roses. God let us live to face obstacles cos learning to overcome them shows just how much we really depend on God. Guess I didn't trust Him enough cos I'm always worrying about what will happen.
Well. Life's just like that. Ups and downs. happy times and bad times. It's a way of life. Just gotta accept it and trust God that it can be done. That's the lesson learnt. I haven't been close to God nowadays so that's why my life is so topsy-turvy.
gtg now. And Ihope peace on earth will be restored. No more wars, diseases, disasters. It's not possible cos it's showing symptoms of the end of the world. ah well. So treasure ur lives on earth, people!:)(esp me.)

2009-04-23T19:00:00.003+08:00

hellos.It REALLY has been an awfully long time since i last blogged.I know my blog is rotting like mad. but no choice. So so many things have happened and are going to happen soon. Some were depressing, like my results for ca1, and all my tests, and not bonding with God. The things that are going to happen are obviously exams. Big growl. i think i will fail if i dun revise and recap.:( and all that stuff is hard.
the main reason I'm blogging to shout out my feelings-SYF. Yups. It just passed yesterday. guess what. no happy story either. Our hopes for Gold were dashed. u guesses it. a silver. Everyone ws crying like crazy, and the bus was just lingering with that feeling of disappointment and dejectedness.
Imagine that-we let everyone down-mr boo, the school, our instructors, even us. but I dun think it was our fault.Frankly speaking,I still don't see what was wrong with our performance. It was the best so far. I think that itwas due to the way we dressed. other schs were all dressed in fancy costumes of all sorts, but we were just in our blazers and white skirts, as usual. think that was what pulled us down.The shoes weren't standardized, so were the skirts. haix. everytime i think of it it makes me sad.
:((
I still think that we all learnt something after all. Life has to move on, and we just have to do it. improve on the next time round.It is never a bed of roses. We just gotta move on with God's guidance and have faith that we can do it. I hope the Gold dream can be fufilled, even though i'll not be around for the next syf. Its all in our hands now, the whole C.O.
byes for now.:)

2009-02-06T22:53:00.002+08:00

yeah. it's been a fairly awfully long time since i last blogged. And lots of stuff, as usual happened/
let me just name them all in point form cos their too many and the battery for the laptop's getting low.
1. I've gotten lazy.
2. honestly, i even put Qt aside from all the other stuff.
3. every day has been a hectic day.
4. my grammar has been detioriating.
5.my speed of reading has slowed down.
6.even my typing is getting from bad to worse.
haix. I need real bucking up, especially in my relationship with God. I can even sense Satan's presence around me and I have indeed been lured into one of his traps once. But of course I'll make sure I wont be so foolish again.I'' talk bout this in my next post.
Well, the conclusion is, knowing and obeying God is essntial as it helps to bring you to look at another prospect of life and walk through life with Him. Without him, disastrous things woulda have had happened to me, like the above mentioned.
I hope everyone will also get to know God. yeah. Its impt.
goodbyes for now. && i wish everyone a good journey ahead in life, esp in sec 3& 4 years.:D

2009-01-26T17:11:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY to everyone out there today!:) hope everyone is having fun right now.
It's been a long time since I last blogged. lots of things came up and about these few days.Most of it are bad stuff but let's not talk about them on new year's day.
gtg for now. yup I noe my post is short but this'll hafta do. God bless all ppl !!
Buh byes for now.:D

2009-01-06T18:47:00.003+08:00

Time really flies. It's alrdy the 3 day of school. I don't see a clear route in front of me cos the peeps in my class a academically better than me. Guess trust God is still essential. And the good thing is, He can be your best friend in times of loneliness and trouble.
I wonder about my future and start to ponder. Yep, no goal in life yet, except for learning to love God. But really, I hope this year will be a better year to start life wholly anew. And change my habits.
Things pass real fast. And sec 3's not gonna be easy. The teachers are alrdy lecturing us on how impt this year is. "Actually, you all are sec 4s already. It's just that its a 2 year course to the O levels."
Blablas but I can't help thinking she's quite right. And my chi needs bucking up. I alrdy made a fool of myself in front of the chi teacher in class today. T.T
Ah well. Let God determine my future. And I will pray for everybody to go through sec 3 in a smoother way.
Buhbyes for now..:]
&&& Have to say that I may not be blogging often, but I will try ta.:)

2008-12-29T09:22:00.002+08:00

WELL, ITS GONNA BE END OF 2008 AND A WELCOME TO 2009 IN JUST A FEW DAYS' TIME. cOME TO THINK OF IT, MY 2 MONTHS OF HOLIDAYS HAVE JUST PASSED IN A WHIRL COS i DID LITERALLY NOTHING EVERYDAY. WELL, ALMOST. THAT'S WHY I'VE BECOME LAZY , YOU CAN EVEN SENSE IT RIGHT NOW. I ACCIDENTALLY PRESSED THE CAPS LOCK BUTTON AND COULDN'T BE BOTHERED TO SWITCH IT BACK SO NOW YOU KNOW WHY MY WORDS ARE IN CAPITAL LETTERS.
MAYBE, LIKE MY DAD SAID, THAT THE HOLIDAYS ARE NOT MUCH OF USE. I AGREE ON PART OF THAT. COS I'M STARTING TO SENSE THAT MY GRAMMAR'S FAILING ME. OK I'M NOT USED TO CAPITAL LETTERS.
Much better.:D
Oh yeah, continuing with my previous paragraph. It seems that I haven't been filling my self with more books and vocabs. And I've been speaking broken English to every one I meet.
Well, guess I better buck up.Next year's gonna be hectic.But I'm a little excited to know who are my new teachers and stuff.And one more thing.I have to stay close to God next year. Put my faith and everything into Him and let His plan for me take shape. You never know what's gonna happen next year, so going with God's guidance is a must.
Ah well. Good byes for now. Wish all ppl a happy New Year. :] And I'm definitely going back to kcs next year.

2008-12-06T11:02:00.002+08:00

hellohellohello there! :)
Yups.I'm at an internet cafe in Taoyuan.My last visit to one in Taiwan ,in fact. Cos today i'm leaving for HomE!! Yay! the truth is, I kinda like home better.Even though the weather here is much much nicer than home. It's pretty much cold here, esp the wind.
hahas.Let's talk about 3 things I enjoyed here in Taiwan. Hm. 1stly,the views here were good and scenic. Loads of mountains && stuff you can't see in Singapore.I took lots of pics to post, but not now.Quite abit of history behind these natural formations, but right now, I can't remember any.
2ndly,I like the weather. So so chilling.But cool.:D The wind blew till my lips kinda dried up.
Lastly, the favourite's the BABY!! He's so especially cute, but when he cries, it's havoc time. And I found out he has a nice and friendly character. He made so many friends round him, even strangers adored him.xDD & he got kissed by the tour guide.hahas.
Well, gtg for now,I'll post when I reach home.:)

2008-11-29T13:39:00.002+08:00

WoW!!! helloes!!!
I'm currently blogging from Taiwan. at a mini internet cafe in the hotel.
Actually, to me, it doesn't really look like a nice decent hotel.
In a way.
Its kinda small. I had ta share a room with me granny. And it was far situated away from my mom's room. And, if ya think about this, it looks kinda spooky. But I tried ta think about God. :)
Well, I can try to live with this, except that we're changing hotels every day cos we're travelling round the country.
Gtg for now, but dun worry, cos I will try ta bring pressies back home!!hahas. For frens && family.As well as posting pics.:D
Thinkin about home makes me miss it.
8 WHOLE days.
Byes for now.

2008-11-23T12:42:00.002+08:00

haix. I'm bored.B-O-R-E-D.
Nevermind. the hols are meant to be boring, other than reading and playing comp. but I'm going to taiwan for a holiday next week. Let's hope it'll be fun.:D
buhbyes for now..:)

2008-11-18T17:48:00.002+08:00

The hols are quite quite boring. All I can do is to become a couch potato and a lazy bum. Guess that's what the hols are for.
ah well. guess everyone will knock off if I elaborate on my hols. And they're passing too fast. C.O's this thurs. T.T
Byes for now..:)

2008-11-13T09:51:00.003+08:00

Today's weather is cooling. No wonder I slept till nine.:)
Better enjoy this very morning cos this week's the only time I can have personal space.
My bro 's holiday starts next week that's why. xD
I'm also quite excited bout tmr.
Cycling at Pulau Ubin! Just hope I dun get lost.
And lose my new cycling skills.( I just learnt to cycle this year:])
Haix. That's for the 2e3 outing.
It makes me want 6.5 to organise fun outings too. And at the thought of 6.5, I am starting to miss everyone already.:(
Thinking bout it won't solve the prob. So just gotta carry on with life, as it is.
Ah yes! Me momsie told me to buy school books yesterday.
I can admit that triple science is just ..to much for me to take. Well, by the looks of it. Makes me regret a lil.
Those science books are the most horrible-looking. So thick.
The history book has almost no pictures.
At least the A-maths book is more promising.
It's more colourful than last year's. That means I can study better cos the brain absorbs more
colours than words. (At least that's what my brain does.)

Haix. nvm bout books for now. Just wanna enjoy my holiday.
Anyway there's nothing much to enjoy. All I do is idle and slack all day.
I keep on thinking there's smth nicer to do but can put my finger on it.
Ah well. Goodbyes for now.

2008-11-06T09:43:00.002+08:00

ooh.
I detest stomachaches. Or rather, cramps.
Just want it to stop aching.
that's all I wanna say right now.
Good-byes.:[

2008-10-30T17:43:00.002+08:00

I think Zhou Lao Shi was being quite mean today.And scary, especially when I was sitting right under his nose. He keeps on picking on ppl who didn't meet up to his playing standards like Shu En and Irma. After all I don't think it was entirely their fault for not putting in effort in practice, if I were them, I would have felt horrible from his remarks.I can't remember roughly what he said, but I remember vaguely that he asked Shu En to stop playing cos she would ruin the song with her playing.
Haix. Although with all these thingsies happening, I still must maintain calm. Cos I also need to put in more effort in my practice too. I don't suppose I will buy the instrument, so I better work harder. T.T
And with so many activities like my mom's graduation party, the holiday trip and COPs,my holidays aren't really holidays.(& sobs I'll miss youth camp.)
After all, the next year will be busier than before. I need more faith in God to help bring me thru all this stuff and to a brand new year in sec 3. + I need to make more friends. & study hard. Work hard. Blablabla.wadever I must do.~sigh~
Blabla. Gt to work harder( why am I repeating myself again??)
I guess that's all on my mind.
Buh-byes for now.:]

2008-10-23T12:27:00.001+08:00

Whew. Today was quite an exhausting day. It was totally scary when my hp got confiscated by ms fauziah. Luckily her bark is worse than her bite. I thank God for helping me through this.Other that that I just wanna say I’m happy for my results. Hurray for God who pulled me through all my obstacles! I guess I need to keep this up for it will come in useful for sec 3. I hope I continue to keep my faith in God. Nothing is possible without him.:)

2008-10-22T15:30:00.003+08:00

Whew. At last the streaming session is over. Now its the results. But who cares about this stuff right now. All I want to do is relax, slack,watch HSM3, and of course keep up with God. (though I'm sad cos I cant get to go youth camp because of my mom.She's a lil hard hearted to make me neglect my time for God while on holiday)
Ah well. All I need to do is catch up with my Qt. I admit I have been lazing around instead of doing Qt these days, and I wanna earn faith in God again.
Guess that's all I wanna say. And that I really miss 6.5.How I wish there will be another get-together this December.
Good-byes for now.

2008-10-08T10:28:00.002+08:00

YaY! exams are over!:)
but it certainly let me learn something-to be contented with what I have and not want more. Isn't that what God wants? After I read my daily prayer letter in my email, I realised that teah, we should mend our own sins instead of mending others' first. And I haven't put in effort in mending my sin.
I will have to try and abstain myself from greed and discontentedness, for I should be glad of what I have already acheived.
Well, that's about all I have on my mind. And one more thing. Prayer is an efficient way of mending sins of hatred and everything sinful.
If we hate some people around us, thats bad. Cos we're not following the Word like this. Yesterday, I stumbled upon a verse from the bible during Qt. 1 corinthians chapter 13 v.4-7. (Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love is not demanding. Love is not irritable,and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices when the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith,is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.)
This love is not mushy love but is something we must learn to develop, even with our enemies, friends, family, society and God.That is the way of loving our neighbour as ourselves. Meaning, I will have to pray for my sin and let God help me to transform into someone that endures through the hardships of life and learn to trust God.

2008-09-23T15:41:00.002+08:00

I really NEED God's encouragement as well as scolding. !stly are my exams. I'm kinda lazy nowadays. Just look at me playing comp. and I did something horrible in His eyes today. Can't talk about it. I am digracing God. But I prayed about it, and I really,really hope I can be a better person in everything. I need to be in action from now.
Goodbyes till the end of EOY. && good luck to all ppl having exams out there, the 2e3 ppl, the 6.5 ppl. yeah.so everyone can choose their subjects. And I have made up my mind to return to kcs whenever I have the time to. well, that's all for today.

2008-08-29T16:52:00.002+08:00

Today I was so, so dumb. I was really saddened and disappointed cos of my results so I sulked all the way to kcs at 11am. Loads of my seniors and other school ppl were alrdy crowding round the security guard to sign in.
then I saw the notice: all ex pupils are invited to visit ur teachers at 1pm. Since it was only 11am, and I didn't want to wait 2 hours like the time when I waited on national day when no one came, I went home.(partly cos I was dejected bout my results and missing my mom in malaysia).
And then my bro told me off for not waiting in the school. Then erin smsed me that a whole load of 6.5 students were alrdy in school. Haix. I simply missed the last chance this year to meet my dear old friends. To see how they were doing. And of cos ms nilam.
But thank God for my bro. He cheered me up by saying that not everyday is perfect and sometimes He will do miracles to make me feel better. And I realised that my bro was the gift to me, to give me company and comfort when I was sad and lonely. Although he might be annoying sometimes.
So ,the big conclusion: treasure everyday of ur life, no matter if its bad or not, and most imptly, treasure your sibings - they are the tiny sparkle of your gloomy life that are a gift from God and maybe, just maybe, that little sparkle is able to brighten your thoughts and mind whenever there are times of sadness and worries churning in you.(still you have to tolerate them no matter how irritating they might be:D)

2008-08-27T17:13:00.002+08:00

Golly. Sometimes I think revising for geog and history is kinda hard and tedious. anyway, I still gotta accept it cos EOY's just a month away. If I don't study I might not even get into any class at all next year. Yesterday I found out that diffrent ppl have diffrerent ways of studying. for example, like me, I need to go back home a study like crazy to achieve good grades. I guess I better not lose hope cos I don't want my efforts to be lost.
My bro didn't study for his Ca2 maths and science and (sadly) he got a band 2 and 3. That proves the power of being hardworking.:]
Believe in God, get the extra boost-and go for it, thats my creed for the rest of the year. x) Yeah. I better buck up too. Buh-byes.:D

2008-08-20T16:37:00.002+08:00

Mixed up days nowadays. That's my complaint for the day. Dode wanna post long. So yeah. Can't help it. Life's just like that.
hope Sa2 results better be good.
Byes.

2008-08-07T12:47:00.003+08:00

Wheez. Mini toon's stuff are really sort of expensive. I went to shop at J8 after today's cross country for pressies for the birthday people. Quite a lot, really. My bro, my cousin, the baby, I was even thinking of getting early pressies for ppl born in Sept but I only had $7 to spend+ mini toons discount card.
The only things I could afford was a stringy sweet, a toy that could erupt and a pink ring. Haix. Prices of Stuff these days just keep on going up and up. Ah well. gtg.
btw,Wish everyone a happy national day and a good short holiday.:) Too bad I'll hafta study for the 7 tests coming round next week.T.T

2008-07-28T17:43:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty surprised cos i got in to perform at Official Opening. But maybe i may get eliminated. If i continue to perform,i'll have ta stay back almost every single day.
Still I thank God for making my days learning experiences. nearly everyday I get something out of it. for example, on sunday, which was my gran's bday. My aunt organised a feast at a restaurant but before that, I was brought into a Buddhist temple, not to pray but to look around. Well, I can say it is pretty much different from church as the place was a lil smoky and.. if you say weird.(im not trying to be a racist here, I'm not that evil la.)
Then when we got into the car, I simply Plucked up all my courage and dug allmy lungs out to ask a question i was sensitive to:' Big Yiyi(I called my aunt that since young), If I can visit you place of worship, why can't you visit my place of worship too?' Then Uncle Philip spoke up. 'I knew you would say that. But spending 10 mins in a temple is the same as spending and hour in church. Frankly speaking, I have been there too, but it doesn't suit me.'
I was disappointed then. Sometimes adults can't understand the feelings of others. and please note that I am definitely not scolding or cursing behind anyone's back, thanks. Anyway, I had a thought. I have been to a temple too, so frankly speaking, it doesn't suit me either. If I were to say that, I guess it will be quite rude. And then I had another thought. If I had plucked up my courage to say i wanted to enter the temple, then they shouldnt have saved face by saying stuff about church. I'm still a human being ya know, I have feelings. Sometimes I feel that adults think they're always right, but chiildren too have brains.
Yeah. I have been offended because of this religion thingy quite a few times by my non-christian relatives. I know I have been wrong to talk back. Still, the adults will also have to realise and give a listening ear to use children, and at least, hear and answer back from their heart. Haix. I guess this world is topsy-turvy and sinful after all, we can't help it. But I know it when another opportunity for spreading God's word comes along ,and I know God will give my the courage and strength to strive on.

2008-07-23T19:07:00.003+08:00

Wow. Finally a nice post. I guess today ended quite well even with C.O and tuition. Thanks to my fervent praying that today will be fine.:] I guess God's word really works if you continue to have a great relationship with him. Well. Life is full of twist and turns, it can never be a bed of roses but this is like a test on how you manage yourself.
Anyway today something sad happened. I got caught for my fringe during a sudden spotcheck. I was pretty shocked cos never in my life had I been caught during a spotcheck before. Anyway my hair wasn't that long. It was parted to the side, but Ms Tanny Koh pulled it down to see its length. So much for strictness. Well I don't hate her because of one small thing. I suppose she had her own reasons. God says to forgive and forget, and lastly, remember to do the right stuff.:) to prevent from getting caught.
( But what made me feel that she was unreasonable was that when I asked for a hairclip to pin up my hair, the councillor gave out paper clips. A reminder that we're not exactly paper dolls, so a punishment does't mean using paper clips to pin up your hair. But in the end i got a free paper clip.x])
Ah well. Gtg for now. Have ta study for that geography test.

2008-07-22T15:15:00.002+08:00

Well. Its been a long time since i last posted cos i wasn't allowed too. Haiz. Sorry yeelynn but i have to write a sad post for today. It's just that life has been hectic, now that a load of tests are coming my way. Worries bout D&T and homework and friends and stuff. Sometimes a little breakaway from school will be good.
Lw thinks I'm evil and doesnt want to tell her how to do her maths. I mean, this isnt a really big thing but itkeeps bugging my mind. I try to help but what's the use if you dont understand what I'm talking about? Unless you tell me i have a serious speech problem. Maybe i havent been reading enough books. :[
Now i have to work a gain for tmr's maths and science test. and geog on thursday. History test should be on next monday. This friday is elearning day. ~~sigh~~

My CGLs talked about having faith last sunday. Not only one should have faith, he should step forward and dig towards his goal too. Like this we can meet our goals. God will be pleased. I wanna make Him pleased. So i'd better try hard from now onwards. Anyway you never know whats gonna happen to life, so might as well make the best out of it.
OH GOSH i think i just saw a great fat lizard creeping into my room..oh dear.

2008-07-11T17:44:00.002+08:00

Garlh gralh garll guarlhh GRHHGRR...........................g.g.g.g.g.
Sorry. That was to shout out my mixture of feelings right now. Its making me sick. Sick of school and homework.
My bro told me that my dad said to him I was looking sad all day because I had a crush on someone. He even added that this always happens in secondary school. Well I guess he doesn't understand me. He seems to think I have transformed into a total tyrant who acts like those hooligans and ignore God and flirt about instead.

Let me just truthfully say that I'm stressed about work. D&T especially. I dunno. Come to think of it this D&T work is the itch I'm scratching about now. I have to complete the design journal and the paper model by NEXT WEEK. And plus revision and tuition and COP and homework and extra lessons I guess I can't stick a time in for that.
Maybe I need to strengthen my devotion to God. Pray more, I guess that's the only thing that will help. Anyway, I know God will somehow lead me a right path to walk on in my life. Not a wayward, uncontrolled and wild life but a walk with God. I guess I'm really lucky to know Him after all.:]

2008-07-07T10:45:00.000+08:00

haix. My wish is to want everyday to end well. and school too. :[

2008-06-25T15:09:00.003+08:00

Haiz. I dunno why but nowadays I feel crabby and act crabby. As in I act in a totally LOOny manner. I prayed to God that it would stop or is it a common phase of life?? Symptoms of crabbiness:
~yesterday all out of nowhere I screamed at my dad for mopping the floor.
~then I thought that growing fat was a good idea and so I went to make a cup of milo with oats and dunked a pau cold out of a fridge in the milo to eat. It didn't taste satisfactory.
~today instead of screaming at my bro and cousin to stop fooling around i hid their ball under my shirt.
~then i played cooking with my cousin's toy cooking set and "cooked" sausage and eggs.
~I fed the baby bananas.
If you thought I was indeed crabby then you're pretty observant.
Haix. Let's hope my brain will stop fooling around for a while and focus on something useful.:[
blaablaas.Sorry for being weird today. I guess I need God's help.:(

2008-06-23T17:33:00.002+08:00

HellOOs ppls.:] after the holidays and back to school. To be honest, the holidays passed so fast cos there wasn't even a day for me to rest and slack. haiz. But at least i liked the church camp. I'm glad I went for it.
now in whatever i do, I turn to God. Thats one good thing. Actually i feel that I'm really fortunate to know him. but spreading it is a problem although its supposed to be done. I guess i will find an opportunity one day.
On sunday my parents and bro and i went to Tecman's to buy a bible. Buy my dad a bible. Personally, I think they have too many bibles at home that they just keep for show. The real use of a bible is to read and understand it, not sit on it.
Ah well. It costed 89.90. busted. But at least he's doing it for good use.
I bought some pass it on cards but really, I dont have a purpose for using them. They're just cute and meaningful. But I hope to give them away so someone might know God.
Da da. gotta go. I'm not looking forward to school again either. haix.=/

2008-06-11T16:50:00.002+08:00

haix. my mind is in a whirl right now. now i'm having trouble typing cos they said my keyboard isnt connected. this comp is growing old.:(
nowadays i just cant seem to spot God around me. i'm having problems here and there. I've been mmaking d3cicions on my own unwisely. And i need help.
haiz. I guess church camp's meant to hlep me out.at least that was planned.

Ahh well gotta go. This softkeyboard's making me frustrated. T.T

2008-05-21T16:37:00.006+08:00

MY very own self created baby video of my lil cousin with my hp:

hahas. initially i wanted to post my other fav pics but dunno why it didnt work. nvm next time i will show them. Byes for now!!:)

2008-05-20T17:52:00.003+08:00

IN MEMORY OF MY DOGGY BOOKMARK WHICH WENT MISSING ON
20 may 2008
at about 7.25 am
in Beatty SEc SChool.

Well I was indeed stupid to have brought it along in my book when I already know that I'm so careless. Ah well. Forgetta bout it. What's gone is gone. No turning back.T.T STill I kept on thinking about it the whole day. But needless to say due to its adorable and cute exterior anyone would have picked it up a long time ago.

Anyway. LOok from a different perspective. Maybe this happened to teach me a lesson on being responsible. I am irresponsible. When I was in primary school I kept on losing my wallet. T.T
HAiz. Its pretty tiring and boring to stay back in skool everyday for boring post-exam activities. People except the 2es are doing pedicure and manicure and in line skating while we poor kids have to sit for a whole day in a D& T camp. To design a time-piece. Ours was a shape of a chicken laying eggs with our names on it but it was kinda flabby.

Well other than my boring school life there's nothing else to talk about. Except that I think my fellowship with God is a bit straying. =( better do more meaningful Qt. Anyway, I just want to say that being a christian is indeed really fruitful and pleasing for me. Dun think the scriptures are weird but if we look at them bit by bit and understand them, we might just find out its true meaning after all.:]
Gtg. Byes ppl.

2008-05-15T21:37:00.002+08:00

Haix. There's a lot of things I want to blurt out--my feelings and emotions.

Firstly, my exams again. I admit I didn't study to the limit, but getting 76 for maths is already very good. My mom doesn't think my marks are satisfactory. I know that she simply CARES about my marks, but I really think she shouldn't set her expectations so high like her results last time . She could have been a bit more humble. This is what she said that really affected my feelings and thoughts.
"You should aim for even better results. Now i think you shouldn't go into the Arts Stream next year cos the teachers are even lousier than the science teachers. The pupils are even more mischievous. You should be like me. Last time I was in one of the top science classes and there were only 3 boys in the class.."
I really couldn't stand that cos she really insulted the friends and people around me. She just is, truthfully in a way, self-centered. I'm not trying to badmouth my mom, but I'm stating her faults. I really hope that even though she has high expectations of me, she should'nt be so 'truthful and honest ' about it. It hurts my feelings.
Let's just forget about that for a while. Maybe I was just too sensitive. Anyway, I'm indeed lucky to have scored better for my section B maths marks. If not my results would have dropped. People might think I'm weird to believe that God will give me courage and strength to face reality( like the wallpaper i put on my handphone) but it really, effectively helps. If I hadn't come out of my daydreaming thoughts and come back to my senses I would have had failed. All thanks to God. I couldn't have done anything without Him.
I have a trillion more things to blabber about but I guess it's kinda surrounding the topic of schoolwork and more stress. So I wont say anymore.
But I just wanna wish everyone good luck for the results really sincerely and hope God can truly touch our hearts and make our lives change for the better.
Haix. Bye for now.

2008-05-13T12:10:00.002+08:00

YaY!! Today I made an accomplishment. I finally know how to MAKE PANCAKES!!!! XD With Warm MELTED chocolate on it of course..x) It's much tastier than the lumpy ones I made for my mom earlier. At least my day isn't wasted on playing comp.

Today's marking day but I had to go back to school for choir practice. It was kinda weird actually, cos the teacher was much more enthusiastic that the CO teacher. We had to do all sorts of strange singing warm-up exercises like suddenly saying " ahhhh" and screaming at the top of our voices. Well maybe not to the extreme. Tomorrow there's practice, but everyone's going only for CIP points..:]

I guess my holidays are ruined by the soo many choir practices and church camps and everything. NvM at least I wun be a couch potato at home..=)
Buh-byyes for now...

2008-05-12T10:26:00.003+08:00

YaY For exams are over!!!
Well at least for the mid-year exams luh. Anyway, today's maths paper was a bit tough but ok. Cos I forgot to do 1 dum question. nvm abt that. Just hope I can pass all my subjects, at least chinese.
Well, yesterday was Mother's day so me and my bro decided to make pancakes for her. It turned out a big disaster anyway, except that I liked melting the chocolate drops and pouring them all over the lumpy pancakes.:] My mom didn't like it. Pouts.I think she threw it away when i was at CG.
Ah well. Good that I can relax now. To make the most outta my life is my goal. My CG is finally having an outing! And I'm deciding to bring along lw so she can experience God. He is indeed wonderfully cool. Without God,I would never had gone through all the probs in my life.
Gtg now.Byyes..:)

2008-05-09T10:50:00.003+08:00

Whew!! finally literature's over. one more maths paper and I'm gonna fly..xDDD Pwaise God !! well let's hope i can pass anyway.;)
I can tell my blogskin is a bit rotting. Almost no one comes to my blog often anyway. nvm I won't change it now but after the maths paper..:]

Buhh-byes for now..

2008-05-05T11:01:00.003+08:00

Hi ppl. by right i shouldnt be blogging cos the exams are here. well. nvermind.
today was the maths paper1. it was ok except for the last question. But i can proudly say that God has been with me through all the troubles that i had.xDD
I hereby wish everyone to have faith in God and have the courage to face exam stress.:) Good luck to all u ppl out there!! jia yous!! :))

2008-04-18T17:08:00.002+08:00

WootS I'm envious of Lw's NEW blog. xD nvm im not telling the address.Cos i noe she'll box me.

Haiz. Please help to tell the teachers to set lesser hmwk. It's getting on my nerves. Dun even noe how and wad to revise. Pouts. No wonder I've got all these probs. It's because I've not been fellow-shipping with God nowadays. Haven't been to church cos I slept late. Feel like boxing Satan. No use. The only way to box him is to listen to God.

My bro's sick and I have to take care of him. Hope he gets well. Haix. Hope every1's fine. I can't go to 6.5 outing. sobs. nvm. things are just turning like this. Have to accept it. All of it are God's plan for our lives. Maybe it could be good after all.

2008-04-15T16:15:00.003+08:00

Haiz. Good luck for exams ppl. I'm stressed too. Let God help. well.
say a word.
Byes. :(

2008-04-08T16:53:00.002+08:00

HI peeps.. its been a long time since I last posted. Haiz. Life in school has been PRESSURISING these days. Work, work and more work. Pouts. Lw is getting cleverer than ever. Ah well. Just accept it.
I'm trying to do my english homework now + revision for maths. um.
Why am i saying this..? dots.
It simply means there's a lotta work to do. xD cos exams are coming. haix. I wanna go back kcs again. wanna. wanna. wanna. well. cant do much.
Ah yea there's a 6.5 outing on 20 april but I noe I can't go. T.T
but I wanna go east coast park to see all my dearrie frens again. Let's hope things change for the better soon.
. Ah well. sppose I gotta sign off now to do boring schoolwork stuff. byes ppls.
:[

2008-03-28T14:35:00.006+08:00

Whews. Finally back from the camp at Dairy Farm. Yea. Although i went there before there was still alot of things to learn. And.... 1 GooD news!! i made MORE friends!! X] Instead of always staying to the same friends. Although the camp was hot and tiring, at least i learnt something- to expand your variety of your frens and get to know the class better.
Really. Now I know Jovan is afraid of heights.
*ROFL*
By his " tough " exterior in school you can't really see thar he's flabby underneath. Well sorry for critisizing. It's just a comment. Camps are for comments. :)
Well. Lets talk bout the 3d2n camp. It's much longer than p5's, sobs. We went for the normal activities, cheering and playing. Our 1st stop was the flying Fox! Yipee! deen do it in p5 so i was DYING to try it. so much for that. I got numbered last. So i deen even have a chance to play. Sobs.
Our class had to come up with cheers for the camp fire, and Xuan Jie got up with ideas. 2e3 was really cooperating then. Well Jovan was the one that Cooperared the most. Cos banging and screaming was his talent. He can get hysterical sometimes .
We had to take turns to clean the dorms. They were icky-poo. At dorm 5a Zhong han spotted a 'that thing for girls' in the middle of the floor. And he PICKED it up .He was so brave. hahas. And trainer OP ran round and round saying Girls were dirty. Guys were too. We found Saliva and Spit in their dorms. Well its too disgusting to say so i wun say it any more.
Of the whole camp I enjoyed the Bukit Timah Hike best. Although it was challenging and hard, to climb the rocky and muddy paths. But everyone helped each other. I found out even the ppl i dont really like still have a heart to help. :] Except Kenneth. He was so self-centered and selfish and stingy. He didnt even bother to help others. I hate him. Well i liked the sight of the Quarry too. Its said that its the ideal place for gazing stars in Singapore. Haizz.. It was cool. but going down hill was tiring. There was roots and mud and rocky paths and steep stairs all round. Everyone was kind and helped each other. Except Kenneth. He made SiLei fall. Big Fat Dumbo.
Well. Actually there are much more complaints and things to say but there's too much to say so i wun say anymore.
Btw 6.5's going for an outing so Shangzhi wants to know these numbers so please help her out: Shawn, Avel, Minghan, Mingxuan,Jasmine, kEnneth, Joseph & Jarret's numbers.

Buh-bye ppl for now..:D

2008-03-17T17:45:00.002+08:00

Yea I want to admit that no 1 has been wanting to come to my rotting blog. But thanks to the ppl for tagging anyway:].

I've been thinking. Really hard. Along with God's help I've certainly thought about it. Being clever and scoring good marks isn't very important. I mean, it is important but it results in losing your friends.That's what i think. People start to think you're proud or something. But not really. You're just doing your best and not wanting to get that horrible 223 mark again. Anyway topping in beatty is already quite normal. If you're in other schools getting last is normal. I'm glad I've sorted my feelings out.. haix.

And talking about friends. Lw is a pretty smart girl. She thinks the smart way. But I have to think the long way. I find myself out with God and saying that everyone has their own talents and abilities, so I should'nt compare myself with others. and I feel I'm on the right track. If only I think the logical way. Ah well. No use complaining .
God and everyone always emphasize on COMPASSION and being kind. I try to but fail. I don't even know where's braddell bus stop. The lady ran away before i could tell her the way. I'm hopeless at times. But i hope to be more alert and faster in my thoughts so i can be less hopeless.
And also read more books. My English is failing me.

Whew. end of my post. I'd be really glad to the ppl who finish reading this long and boring post. At least you know what's beneath my Dum exterior. :]

2008-03-09T12:33:00.002+08:00

sorry for my weird blog. I'll try to change it. cos i got no time and can't find a nice blogskin. but hope ya like the songs..:)

2008-03-05T17:03:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps. im back. again. got alot of things to say actually. but the moment i reach here my mind goes blank. Its always like that. yea. boring old me again, i suppose.
These few days of school was quite pressurising actually. esp maths. well except that I hate algebra. and there was alotta projects to do. that's why im taking a break now. yeas. Forgetta bout crapping.
Well. Maybe I haven't been to CG that's why I feel weird. As if Im controlling my life. I dode like it. I really hope to appeal to everyone that im just a normal girl. with normal ambitions. Next time when I grow up I want to buy a cute yellow tiny Chery car and a nice dog to keep me company and i'll drive while he sits bside me sticking his tongue out at the breeze . maybe in my dreams. hahas.xD
Anyway im so sad that Lw cancelled her pretty blog. IMagine that .Pouts.

Haiz life isn't a bed of roses i know so i still hope all ya ppl out there will strive to avheive the best! :D (with God's help of course)

2008-02-26T16:16:00.000+08:00

loads of things have been happening these days. some good some bad.got too much to talk about. just wish i can improve my language skills. They're grubby.
Today was so Boring. cos i was too stressed the last night and i was very sleepy during class....then PC period came. Worst things Worst we had to partner KW& KW. ~puke~ the shorter KW sux. haix. well. i hate stress. its making me go crazy cos almost everyday we have tests. Boo yah to tests. They waste ink and paper. T.T
Haix. now i dode like my science teacher. I'm being selected for the so called 'collector". sobs. im not at all responsible. pouts.
haix. bye for now. smetimes i wish i was back at kcs playing with hamsters and better that studying everyday. . .T.T

2008-02-23T18:36:00.001+08:00

Oriental Flirting Game

Click here to play this game

2008-02-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

yox im smsing frm my hp..gonna die..

2008-02-14T18:11:00.000+08:00

haiz.dunno wad to write.suddenly i feel so...squirmy. ? .maybe bcos i have a lot of hwk and im playing comp.>.<>
today we went to the SDC.it wasnt a very good idea of celebrating total defence,really, cos half the school was there and it as a rather tight squeeze. anyways,i picked up a cute stuff toy named SWISS ROLL.^.^ hahs. i named it.but it was a lil bit broken so i brot it home to mend. well not yet, actually. cos i told u that i feel squirmy.
dots....wad else..? im doing a project on the 10 tallest buildings in the world. Considered quite interesting,although i deen choose pollution.lets hope i pass it. haix.
another thing. nowadays mi n lw are..u can say squabbling over things. i guess she's too serious bout things sometimes. but i think intelligent squabbling can strenghthen friendship ties.:D
To tell the truth,she's really quite intelligent sometimes. She's good in her studies. so 我们就要相她好好学习吧 ! xD
haiz.gotta go. btw, just want to wish all u ppl out there HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY (not that im invovled)and may happiness be with you!! lol. and to all kcsiians too!!xD. i dun sound like im blogging.
now BUH-BYE.:)

2008-02-05T15:03:00.000+08:00

Woots. I guess my blog is the same old bring old blog as ever. Like mi. :D my blogskin's been rotting here..but ive been diong sm crabby changes to it. anyway. Forget it.
Yay!!! im lookin forward tuh CNY! 1stly its enjoyable n 2ndly i get tuh c all my frensies..hahs..
Well get to the subject bout my boring ol "life story" again. school's pretty normal and smtimes challenging tuh battle tests and exams but i'm OK with that. Today i was praying hard not to fail my science test + geog test and whew luckily i didnt. and i cant believe my marks too. Owe it all tuh God. Thanks God!! xD

Nowadays i kinda like tuesdays. cos i can get ta ply comp without that twerpy bro of mine. say, irritating.haix. now im chatting to sumit whose in melbourne.
Totally unbelievable. i want my old CGLs back. im not critisizing my new ones, but all they do is just read from the book.
Haiz. ah well. Life's always changing.Changing.
well.gotta go. c ya all tmr..gotta go sch so early at 6.30 when im not a performer..T.T
i guess that's the way things are..byes for now..

2008-01-29T16:44:00.000+08:00

hi peeps..im back..
haizz..days are back to normal these days...go sch go home go sch go home.
boring routine.
but im looking forward to cny cos i can go back KCS!!! XDD
hahs.i wanna go back to be a kid. dode wanna grow up.
haix. wad else??
ah yea my class is gonna PAINT THE CLASSROOM! so cool.
bet than seeing the plain old walls.
well. im looking forward.
Byes fuh now.:D

2008-01-14T15:24:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I last posted. Time really flies and everything i want to grab hold of more has flown away..T.T

And I've been living in this big,topsy-turvy world right now and not trying to do somth better for God.haiz.

Yesterday was a ..weird day. at church. cant say much but my mom got the wrong idea that so happened i stood next to Ryan meant _____. you know. Her brain is so polluted.T.T

Anyway. enough of that. today i got a terrible stomachache in the morning before school. I actaully prayed for a good day. And it did. even with my tummy aching. My mom really worries too much smtimes.

esp bout studying and tuition & all the stuff.

blablas. Maybe I've got to sign off now.Gottaeat my toblerone choc. &do my hmwk. Of course. haiz bye ppl. oh just 4got to say that kcs has totally CHANGED. I dode know. The food changed the aunties changed even the vision also changed. Pouts. hope it isnt true.

If not I'm gonna knock my head against the wall.x]

2008-01-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

Haix school's here forever again. I need ta pack my bag so it'll be a short post . And so long never post. busy in the holidays. went to KL.
Haix.
I dode wanna do homework again. besides, i dont even know whether i can pass sec 2 or not.T.T hope God will help. yep. what else? that i dode like school? well only bcos they dont on the air con frequently.
And i cant believe it. SEC2 !!
time passes really fast. soon i'll be sec3 and 4 then JC then dunno what will become of me .
yea haix.
no more sighing gotta go again..poutx.. want kcs better..now they TRANSFORMED the school uniform into a totally freaky one. T.T stupid neufeld.
nvm buh bye.

2007-12-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

All i can say that today was a WEIRD day and I REBONDED my hair and everyone behaved weirdly and i had to sit in the saloon for 6 WHOLE hours.
and i hated the guy who did my hair cos he pulled it .T.T
Ah well I gotta go cos I'm being rushed by Weird people and i dode know what to do..
haix. bye for now. sorry for no new blog updates.
Maybe cos i'm WEIRD......xp

2007-12-12T08:56:00.000+08:00

Haiz. T.T we're locked up at home during the holidays. how horrible. I'd rather my mom not end her exams so chaos wont happen. i dode like it.T.T pity me.every1 is enjoying & my bro wants his gameboy.
I bet u're thinking how come im playing comp while he's sobbing. cos i alrd noe where's the mouse.
But nth to play here.BORING..
Dun blame God for this.
Cos this is normal in life.
I'm trying to bear with it.
If not for that I would have EXPLODED.
So byes.off for a boring and dum and chaos faction day.~shiver~

2007-12-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

Ah well. Kinda bored.
good that i went to church today.
BUT i forgot that all of them were at youth camp..T.T
so..
what else to chat about?
I'm trying ta change my blogskin right now..
into a really snowy one..
cos chwistmas is coming..:]
so bye folks enjoy ur chwistmas!!
xDD

2007-12-06T13:36:00.000+08:00

..
Finally done my brochure.
Done.Finished.
I never knew I could do it too.
Yay.my 1st time doing it.
I've done it with God's help.:)
But i dode want to do it again of course.

kay stop crapping.But i dode wanna have lasson.
Haix.
2nd last.
so have to endure.

now what do i talk about?
yeah.next weeks chalet time with my family.
I'd rather go with my frens.
my mom has such weird ideas.Chalets in singapore.Hah.
Boring but,better than staying at home.
haiz.no crap to chat about.
Byes people.
I guess your're all on holiday to china or taiwan or smth.
And im still in singapore.
T.T.T

2007-12-03T13:37:00.000+08:00

haizz.......
i feel woozy.
dode know why.
feel sleepy.
Haix.
dode want tuition.
&lessons.
so BORING.
wad do i do.T.T
I dode want to be offpath.
i wanna be myself..straight to God
again.
I feel dum.
Haix.
nvm.
lets talk about other things.
um.
dunno.
lar.
wanna upgrade my blog.
no time.
nvm.
blablas.
blablablas.
blablablablablas.
blablablablablablas.
Kay im lame.
as always..T.T
I want my mom to do well in her examsies.
i noe its hard.
even for me.
i scared i dont do well for sec2.
haix.
time will tell.
God will help.
now gotta go.

2007-12-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

haixx...
I dode know why but i feel weird...
notmyself..
maybe its bcos i deen go to church...........HAIXX.......................
N I FEEL selfish.
i dode want satan to take over me again..
and i hope i get to complete my brochure..
yeps..
kay buh byes peeps..
happy holidays..
:]]

2007-11-29T13:54:00.000+08:00

Dots..boring boring..everything not done yet..haix..nvm..I'm fretting fretting fretting..worrying ..HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
kays I'm going a lil mad so byes..

2007-11-29T09:45:00.000+08:00

Haizz..so sad so sad so sad...How'd I create a brochure when I dun even know how to and where to print..???
Pouts..nvm...BOOHOO...PreSssure..Arrghh......T.T

2007-11-26T15:47:00.000+08:00

Hahaz..Posting during break..I guess I'm BORED. No other websites.
Ah I made a neww fren today..thats good..better than staying at home.
Ah wells.posta bout wad?
Kays byes anyway.

2007-11-26T13:12:00.000+08:00

OMG I didn't know that they allowed us to play comp here in British council xD..but no privacy la...kays buh-byes..

2007-11-26T08:49:00.000+08:00

Haixx.. I love mah mom & dad..(I should anyway)
It all started when I DIDN'T GO TO CHURCH.It was like a battle between God and Satan.And Satan won again.I felt so guilty.T.T
So I went to watch TV.Then my dad came back from church."Wanna go Ngee Ann City to walk?And buy a new HP??!!"said my dear dad. Of course I was DYING to go.But since my mom didn't like the sound of it and my bro deen go,I deen go too.HAIZ.If I had gone to church I could've gone.Then my mom screamed at my dad to buy lunch for us.But my dad was in the queue at Singtel for 3 WHOLE HOURS.And at about 4 he came back with my hp.oh dear.I thought it was 6070 but he bought an even more HI-tech phone.100 bucks for not finishing my contract this year.T.T
My mom wasn't very happy .Nor was my bro cos he was late for swimming class.
In the pool I thought about lotsa things.My dad was the 1 who tried to make us happy.with the things we like.And my mom was the 1 who cares about our studies too much .Haiz.there are many different ways of expressing care and concern from our parents.So we just have to accept them as they are.

2007-11-24T16:39:00.000+08:00

Today I went to KCS to accompany my bro to buy books..the school really brought me back to old childhood memories..ah well..no use fretting again..cos we can't turn back time...we should thank Him for at least giving us a life to live..haizz..
well I've got NTH to do.. except my mom asked me to do hmwk (again) well I'm not doing anyway..=]

haix better sign off now cos I 'm always going on and on and on and on and on and on and on............

2007-11-22T09:04:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since I last blogged..& switched on that comp. Cos sometimes I just can't find a twitch of games I can play to keep me going..
Anyway,last night my dear mom went for a dinner and brought back 2 free tickets to the movie -Enchanted-!!xD well I can't say much about itcos she gave up the movie tickets to me & my bro..so kind of her..cos she has ta do so much WORK..sometimes I wish she has less work to do..like us..she seldom spends time with her family ya noe..T.T
Kays..bye peeps enjoy ur holidays..:D

2007-11-19T09:18:00.000+08:00

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2007-11-16T09:23:00.000+08:00

Haiz..blahblahs..holidays are alrdy here but I just can't sit around doing nothing..& haven't got a topic to share today..Ah well..I'll sign off first..byes..

2007-11-14T09:43:00.000+08:00

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2007-11-10T21:24:00.000+08:00

I'm bored.so I went through some comp files and found these pics=)

kays..Buh-byes..

2007-11-08T20:09:00.000+08:00

Wow...today was FISHY.

My aunt & uncle brought us ta go FISHING. At least something exciting ta do..=) I thought only we few were going,but in the end,almost the whole family went.Like,WEIRD.Hahas. So we did longkang fishing,which involved sticking your legs in the pool and scooping for fish. My bro was so scared at 1st cos he didn't like to stick his legs in the pool but I splashed in the water 1st.hahas.Which got him going. Well we caught LOTSA LOTSA FISH till we got all wet and covered with booboos. So I've got a booboo on my knee right now.well nevermind.I seldom get booboos.

And when we got home bringing 2 full bags of squirming fishes my mom winced in disgust(cos she deen go.)So we had to clear all that fish(including the dead 1s ) and ended up giving some away.lucky us.:)

Actually the last last night I prayed for a less boring day the next few days,And I think God really answered my prayers.So I should thank him.=]

kays I'm crabbing enough so buh-bye folks at least I had something ta do today..! xDD lol.xp

2007-11-07T09:01:00.000+08:00

STUPID BRO DUM BRO I DETEST YOU X3!!!
Haiz.Sorry.deen mean to hurt his feelings.but I just had to .Cos I feel all bottled up.Cos he likes to do dum things.but can't blame him..he's still tiny.Not MATURED yet & I wonder when will he be matured.Probably like 10 years later.
Kays nevermind.T.T
God says not to worry cos he's always beside us through thick & thin,so we can stress down.So I thank Him for everything he gave me.THANKS LORD!!xDD (except for my bro,no exceptions la)
kays bye peeps gotta go..

2007-11-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

Haizz..
WE almost lost a family car & a dad..
it was HOrrible when I heard it.
But I dun feel like narrating it.
It really sounds..well SCARY..
Maybe the next post..
Anyway We were lucky enough that God still protected us..
In no matter what trouble,God simply made for us..
I guess to test or faithfulness in Him..
He still (luckily)put my mom with me & my bro
&allowed a nice lady to help my dad when in trouble..
Haix.
Maybe we dont have enough faith & trust in Him..
Maybe that's why it happened..
Enough of narrating for now..
SOBZ
Anyway the problem's kinda solved by itself now..
not to worry..
Kays BYE folks ..
Time ta say good-BYE..

2007-11-02T08:09:00.000+08:00

I never did like online games.
And I'm glad I never did.
I'm not saying it's dull and boring.
I'm not saying it's wrong.
But just sometimes it doesn't turn out right dring the game.
And it's really mind boggling.
And troublesome.
If you don't know what I mean.
like eg.Zwinky.
they said a dorm room costs 1250 bucks.
and i had over 1330 bucks.
but when i wanted to buy it.
Guess what.
They said i hadn't enough bucks and suggested to BUY (IN REAL$) the bucks..!
How infuriating.
I waited so long for this moment but of course,
Not successful.
haix I guess the game inventor needs to earn money too.
so every game has it's own good & bad points.
i've got many games.
But they're lame.
so i'm deciding on whether to totally quit out of games.
ah well.
doesn't involve any1 but me.
so FAREWELL people.
(lol.)

2007-11-01T09:32:00.000+08:00

hey peeps if u can't see what im writing just highlight it..:)

2007-10-31T10:13:00.000+08:00

haizz...what shall I do today..?
I dode know why but it's just so boring.
Woke up at 10am today cos i overslept cos of the chalet yesterday.. Well..
can't blame it..it was considered fun &independent learning
as I call it..=) haix..no use regretting on not treasuring my childhood life..cos all that has already passed.. too bad.
And I am GRATEFUL to these people that i can actually Enjoy the chalet with them:BOhHIn-for her great barbecueing,Shang Zhi for being kind enough to go slow on the bike,Erin,Wendy,JIaJIng for accompanying me home,even Sim wang & alden for wetting the bike with their sweaty shirts..xD
Well enough of thanking..gotta go..comments leave it on the taggie..so BYE..:)

2007-10-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

I never knew i could learn so much in one Sunday at church.I can tell you it's really meaningful.Iguess i should share it with everyone.
today in CG we learnt about how actually our current acheivements are actullay God's BEST for us.so even if we did poorly for our exams , that doesn't mean that it is the end.maybe God wants us to do that and maybe later, we acheive much better results.
An example-today's weather was dum and dull and rainy so my brother couldn't go swimming.But then he came to a conclusion-MAybe God wants me to stay home and study for my exams and not go swimming today,maybe that's God's will.:))
So people,you just have to keep on going and striving hard in life and get what ya want and don't be discouraged so you can carry on in life..
well i could have written more but it will sound like preaching so buh-byes 4 now..x)

2007-10-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

I got my exam marks this week..it was considerably ok but to me so not ok..my english compo i could have gotten better marks..cos i recently thought of a Perfect topic to write on but to late..haix..T.T ..but to be sure i deen spend my after exam-schedule the way i wanted-TO BE FREE OF EVERYTHING...!!
Kays i guess the world isn't always fair..i have to spend precious hours of playing comp to set dum questions all bcos of my bro's exams..pouts..T.T and quarrels always come about (again) yup thing normal thing to do in this family..well we have to accept it..bla blas..kays im lame..
gotta make this postie short cos my bro is gonna scream his head off..
and i gotta keep up with QT cos it really helps..and i got my bro to do it to..Yays!x)
kk byesies my lil bloggie and wish all uu ppl out there a cheerful day ahead..ppl dun worry bout exam marks cos u all have done ur besties..=)
now buh-bye.

2007-10-14T16:54:00.000+08:00

heys.It's good that i can play comp when my bro's not around.=DHe is a pain, always controlling me and not letting me go after my freedom after exams just because he's got exams.haix.dun care him luh..=))

Im pretty upset with many things recently,esp my results for el and cl.i deen fail nor score.and i dode like it.im feeling so dum.why can't i just get a better score when i studied so hard?it's not fair.:[ so sad.nvm.what's done is done.

And im sad that i deen go church today.i COULD have gone.god must be angry now.haizz.but im creating a QT habit now.it is good.=]
kays guess i have to go now bye ppl hope my blog isn't to ugly(cos im not too comfy with black skins)
buh-bye..:)

2007-10-08T22:55:00.000+08:00

YaY!!! I'm HappY Again! Exams over!xD

Can't believe exams over.I really need to relax.And do u think i will ever have a rest?? the answer is not really.Cos im being forced to guide my bro in his dum homework and not play comp except now..~pout~
k. better make full use of my time here. I have lotsa ppl to thank.
The ppl who remembered my birthday are nice lil angels.well im not saying that those who did not wish me happy bdae are bad lil angels la.i just felt very touched by the lil things and wishes i got.
I thank my wonderful dad who gave mi an mp3 and even my mom for giving me lotsa exam papers to do.+even my bro who emotionally tied up an unused pen+pencil and gave it to me as a pressie..i almost broke down..okk nvm.

& yea.all my sweet frens out there too..x) yups..i really appreciate their comments and pressies.=)
Enough of bdaes.Let's rant about smth else.umm..being bored?nah.having fun?nah.ok lets get to the point.
i hope all the peeps out there will pass and score well n their exams..and the world will be more peaceful..:]Sin no more, shout no more..yes that will be haven.
Well that's the reason why we christians are about for..to make the world a better place..if that helps..
ok sobs ppl time to go byesies bloggie..:[

2007-09-25T16:42:00.000+08:00

yeb today was icky-poo cos there were cockroaches EVRYWHERE.lucky i wasnt at home.i can tell u i was REALLY scared till i almost wanted to faint.T.T
And im a litttle nervous about this thursday's exams. cos ive never taken 1 before. lets hope God can help me through. He's the best at helping if u believe in Him.And going to church is a good thing after all,it draws me nearer to Him.=)and i can learn so many things too.

well enough of my boring chants.bb.<33

2007-09-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

haix...this post will be filled with what ifss..~~~WHAT IF I FAIL ALL MY EXAMSIES??~~~WHAT IF I GET CHANNELED TO NORMAL???~~~WHAT IF I GO SELFISH???~~~WHAT IF I IGNORE BOUT THE PROBS IN MY LIFE??

haix...sad..nowadays i just can't seem ta absorb any infomation... that day i tried ta absorb some science into my head and the whole night i could only dream of acids and alkalis..and i got a dreadful stomachache..(holy moly) T.T

so i really wanna get into the "MOVE" again and start my revision..well i jolly well hope im ready.And that the Lord can help miie..well also to uue frens out there too..haixx...:(

well what else can i write?about my problems again? I guess that'd be really boring cos i have too many probs.Anyway, lets talk bout something else.Yea. Im also kinda sad that Vanessa Anne Hudgens went ta take that awful pic..T.T I guess evry1 changed their opinion about her..sad..well i sorta like her but she shouldnt have done such an awful thing..:( how i wish the world would be empty of sin so evry1 could be happy..haiz..well i heard the 2nd coming of Christ is coming soon..well..so evry1 get ready..i hope...

2007-09-07T09:02:00.000+08:00

ooh i kinda like animes nowadays.not the show but the pics..ya noe..their looks are kinda magical and pretty..well any way any comments pls leave it on the taggie..now buh bye happy holidays(well isnt it gonna be over)yep byesies ppl..xDhave a good day ahead..~grin~

2007-09-06T08:12:00.000+08:00

haizz...yesterday I learnt the "true" meaning of why are we here on earth..yea..God put us ppl here for a reason..to spread the Word,and to experience being a living thing..
and i jus feel like shouting out that i
REALLY have a blessed family..im lucky enough ta enjoy life,have my world of great frens (even to get to study)..=)
I hereby thank whatever ppl and all the ppl who
have helped mi through my growing years..yep..=))..
And hey..i hope evry1 studies hard and gets to fulfill their dreams
for the years ta come..>.<
kays i still sound like im lecturing but i have nth more tasay so buh bye good luck see u and GOODBYE TA ALL ..cos im signing off now...xDD

2007-08-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

T.T Don't u think that all my posts are a bit BORING?? Im like always talking on the same stuff.
Still im getting kinda excited bout teacher's dae. Im not a teacher but i like celebrating it with my teachers,esp the 1s in kcs.:D Although my pressies arent very useful and good and their too tiny STILL they are pressies anyway.
Well if u all have any comments on my posties PLEASE do tell me cos my posts r lousy..
bye ppl..=)God BleSS All..xD

2007-08-24T17:56:00.000+08:00

.eh hem.sorry 4 my boring posts. Uue may b wondering wad
im talkin about.today was BORING.The art teacher deen
come.and C.O was so TOTALLY DUM.Yupps.i deen noe
WHY i went but i have to.the dancers were using the music
room so we had to wait till 3pm but our practice starts
at 2.30.Well.at least half an hr later is much better.Still
there was some sort of misunderstanding and during C.O
the 周老师was like grumbling on his usual grumbling
and mr sin added in..until 1 and a half hr passed .but still
GRUMBLING bcos ..well..all i noe..they like 2 grumble
as their hobby.T.T Conflict always happens.so sad.and Cindy
cried.cos wenling Directly sad that she wasn't a very nice
person to evryone and was a backstabber.well..i dode really
like Cindy but..ppl shount say such heart-hurting words in
front of her.its so sad.haix.If only C.O was much livelier
sometimes.it'll be nicer.and if i could play along with
them.and the 周老师 said to us erhu sec1s that we
were horrible in our playing and sooner or later we'd
be kicked outta C.O.Nvm.i can still join band.:D

u noe,my dad says that if life has too many troubles,with the Lord guiding along side and us praying to Him,our life would go on smoothly.Yep.thats a good thing.n i hope more ppl will noe God..cos He really is a great God..:))

..wanna noe my compiled CA2 marks?its only 4 chinese and science.n im not the least good.4 chinese.xD
Chi---63%(which is B3=[ )
sci----82%A1(which is the highest in class[dode think im a pro hor])
hope i do well in the other tests and exams and all my frens too..hope they pass them wif FLYING colors..=]
n i DO miss 6.5.looking 4ward to this coming teacher's dae..=))
BUh-bye..gotta go..:D

2007-08-19T11:28:00.000+08:00

T.T.dun feel like posting.but i want to.nvm.jus wan to say that i learnt many things these days.Yesterday was some experience.we were doing CIP 4 C.O at city hall.its kinda like a donation+selling things kinda thing.each person must go in pairs and sell 6 bears and books and cum bk 3 hrs later.i was kinda excited.but its the type of ppl u come across.Caucasians r much nicer than locals,of course.
There was a eurasian couple walking and chatting and i asked:'Would u like ta donate?' 'Oh wait a minute i get out my purse.'said the lady.her hussy streched out his hand and gave us a dollar EACH.Not only that.the lady got out her pursie and took out her spare coins.'some 4 u, some 4 u,and some 4 u.There! its all i have.i have to use it up.'And she showed us her EMPTY purse.We dropped our mouth wide and said a tiny thank u.Wow.i can tell u that even i wouldn't be that generous to give my money away.mostly I'd only give about 30 cents.some ppl r jus so kind.i appreciate them 4 that.
and 1 more thing.we almost got CAUGHT donating in a shopping mall by a dum old security guard.we weren't criminals, of course.we were given liscences.but he said that each shopping mall has their own athourity to issue permission to do such things.'wanna come with me to my supervisor?' i was like,'NO thanks,uh we won't do it again..gotta go..' whew lucky us.
n today church sermon??i dode know howda say it but it was kinda dull.i couldn't understand.anyway its still something to learn.
..guess i gotta go ppl.and jus a tiny reminder:plEEESE donate more to charity esp when sch students go about holding charity coin boxes and asking uue to donate.It'll make them happier.=)
now buh-bye.

2007-08-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

uue can play wif the ballie=)hav fun!xD

2007-08-04T09:40:00.000+08:00

You know,things have been a bit unfair and sad and uncivilised these few days..T.T i dode know why but I have a rumbly feeling that im gonna fail my SA2 and jump 2 NA..=( .... cos i almost(not almost la)FAILED my history test +chinese test..i feel so sad..=(i guess it aint gonna be easy after all..~sobz~

haizz just hope HE ,the Lord will guide me through all exams and testies and evry1 else too..

And talking about todays and yesterdays C.O.P.sort of unfair.=( haizz i dode really like my senoirs(nor do i hate[im not supposed to hate])..cos u noe why??

well when i was tuning my erhu and Liying was using　the 调yin qi to tune the other sec1s sound,i was also trying to lisyen to the correct sound and tune my erhu,1 of the seniors walk by and saw me twisting the erhu bar without the tiao yin qi,she said:'dun anyhow turn wait turn until break.Liying help her tune.'i was like..OH..and then Liying was jus starting 2 tune mine when she said:'ok already why u give me tune 4 u?'hmph.she doesnt noe that i already noe how to tune an erhu and play it as well.haizz..and they nvr did give us sec1s a chance to perform and teach us really properly how to play it.but anyway..im to familiar wif that erhu..u noe le la..

well suppose i gotta go n teacher's day and many other bdaes r coming too so i hope they'll be all fine...n im looking forward 2 seeing kcs ppl again..

anyway byesies..=)

2007-07-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

=)=)=) come to think of it, i really think that..u noe..somehow or other God has given me a blessed life...haizz..well..maybe i just wanna take this opputunity 2 thank every1 i know ..kcs ppl..teachers..parents(well i dunno.. maybe sometimes)..cos they all SUPPORTED me and CHEERED me on to do my best..at least..kinda..>.<
And yay liwei's gonna have a bloggie!!! *clap*=)
So....to end this short msg..wish evry1 a good dae a head..=)
gotta go cos need 2 finish up hwk..wadever is there..
byesies..

2007-07-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

=)=)=) i feel ok today..except that today had a history test..=.=i think i fail..nvm..well i hope 2 moro wil be better..bysies..^.^

2007-07-09T17:36:00.000+08:00

heys..ppl..its been some time..and during these times 4 me was kinda horrible and dum cos i (deen really use God's help)=(

so if u too have been rushing about tests and exams and all that horrible stuff u hate and u r filling urself with anxiety then here r some bibile verses 2 calm u down(as well as me larh xD)~~

Let not your heart be troubled. You are entrusting God, now trust in Me. (John 14: 1).

But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wing's as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)

Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world. (1 John 4:4)

...i just hope i can lead more peaceful days,instead of QUARRELING and SHOUTING and SCREAMING and WHACKING which commonly happens at home..ok nvm..

2day i had swimming lesson..i thot it would be fun..we were all so excited..(kinda)then must seperate into grps..lucky we gals wer in the same grp..^.^

the the coach only ask us to float in the water and 'hold ur breath 4 10 secs under water'~~as if we were really beginners..anyway..really fast it was time 2 shower(which i hate the most)cos my things are always unorganised..=.=den share cub.wif liwei n in the end we were the last 2 get on the bus n liwei ran up without her shoesies..>.

so bye gotta go..:)

2007-06-27T18:06:00.000+08:00

ok wont post too much..jus 2 say dat 2 day was a horrible day..late 4 skool...4got 2 bring bk...got blamed..haizz nvm.bye.lifes always like dat..but anyway God DID help me a lil bit..thankz L0rD!!>.<